well..since last night's NP25 meeting and after chanting hard , i kinda start doing some severe reflections upon myself.

to all out there , im not preaching here , but i believe that the power of the gohonzon had just been demonstrated at this point, because usually i dont do self reflections as it is super hard for me (right josh?) . but however , by coincidence or something , i reflected upon myself yesterday and today .

reflected on my shortcoming and how messed up my life is . now , im gonna make it right . first step to sorting out my life is to practise more , have more faith -> chant more .

and thanks to weiliang ytd that preached to us that when you chant , you have to be serious , im gonna take that seriously , therefore at 2am later im probably going to chant , according to jefferson , 2am is time of ox bull? and that is the time that sensei chant , so i get to chant with him! LOLOLOL .

second step is that i noticed that my life is not very organized . Now that i had become a CIC . i have more schedules to account for in the gakkai as well as my personal life. personal responsibilities for my frens and family . the next time i find a scheduler to my liking , i swear im gonna buy it and write down teachings etc.

third step is to be SERIOUS in my exams . i had just screwed up DSS , and if i fail , i need to have a high score in order to kapoei with the sch to make me get a pass -.- . and for that i made a schedule , will upload it so that i wont digress too much.

fourth step , will not post cause it is very long , but it has to do with my personality , will post some other time ba.

well...i had put a new blogskins, been receiving feedback that it is hard to reach my tagboard cos the picture for my links are broken and cannot be seen . gonna use this skin temporarily , then im gonna make my own blogskin gonna use that forever (lol like josh) .

wanna show all that the next time you see me , it will be a new CRISS.

jiayous everyone for your exams , mug hard k?? =D